I tried to make some sense of my life today. I had devised a plan which would make me more efficient and therefore effective at work and allow me one day a week to write away to my heart’s content. I knew it was a long shot and was proved right when my boss declined my proposal – understandably. This wasn’t really much of a surprise but I fully expected to be deflated and disheartened to the point of tears. But this was a surprise. I really wasn’t.
I pondered a little longer on the drive between jobs, and in the short three mile journey I resolved something. Yes, my future career is something in which I can write full time, but why do I have to while away the in-between years doing a job, quite frankly I have grown to dislike intensely? See, something from yesterday’s post has certainly lodged itself deep. So maybe I am not about to go out and set the world alight with an innovative business proposal but there is absolutely nothing stopping my searching for something I want to do alongside the writing.
Ideally I would like to do something creative. I am fully aware that a change in career means taking pay cuts and beginning once more on the bottom rung, but that doesn’t scare me. I am also not hugely daunted by the prospect of having no clue what it is I actually want to do. Its exciting really; I’ve never been in this situation before. The vast majority of people coast through their lives unknowing of what they’ll do when they eventually grow up. My career progression started being very grown up from being four – it was all I wanted. Other than the long game to write books, I have never contemplated doing anything else, my path was already set and carved out before I left primary school – entirely my own doing of course.
So tomorrow afternoon, along with spending birthday vouchers on some long awaited new jeans that actually fit (I lost two stone in 2010 don’t you know!) I think I will pay a visit to the local careers service. I have no idea what may come of chatting to someone there but it would be nice to hear some potential options I could work towards, some ideas for potential paths I could follow along side writing my books. I am not just going to take up any old office or temp job just to leave teaching, no, I want to have purpose again. This current job will suffice for the next 6 or so months, supply could tide me over beyond that, but I feel a shining light might be on the horizon. Any thoughts, gratefully received!
I just completed a rather poor and cheesy career ‘survey’ on iVillage to be told my top three careers would be Artist, Historian, Novelist! Brilliant!